I’m 20 years old and while I woke up in the middle of the night to pee, I suddenly realized “oh shit, my parents are getting old”, my mom is almost 50 now and my dad is almost 60. This realization did make me feel extremely uncomfortable and insecure because I don’t have even as little as a minimum wage job, I live with my mom, and my grades in college are suffering because of online study. My reason for feeling like I’ve wasted so much time is not because I haven’t been looking for a job or financial security before, but because my motivation as always been to get it to move out on my own and maybe find a girlfriend, and start a career that I enjoy, now I think my motivation has switched to taking care of my parents(although I still desire things like a girlfriend and personal enjoyment). So I just wanted ask other men at what age did they come to this realization? And also advice on what I should chase first, my desires or my responsibility?