I realised I’ve fallen into a bit of a trap here and want to get out of it because I want to make her feel like a first choice and want to love her for the incredible person she is. I feel so lucky to be able to call her my girlfriend because she’s the most amazing person I’ve ever met, i accept her for who she is and all the flaws that come with her and I love that we have the same goals in life (getting a degree in something we’re passionate about, travelling the world, starting a family one day etc.)
I want to find ways to be okay with myself first that don’t make her feel like just a coping mechanism or a way to feel better about myself, because that’s just not fair on her. I realise that if I don’t fix this then it’ll be wrong of me to continue dating her because she’ll deserve someone else that loves her because they’re already satisfied with themselves and don’t look for someone to fill the void in them. I want to work on this and better myself so that I’ll be able to say I love her because she adds so much to my already complete life instead of just fills it because I’m missing something.